New Changes

It has been a pretty busy weekend. Did a lot of errands and hung out with one of my best friends who I haven't hung out with in forever. We have known each other for a long time and did a lot of things together in the past few years. But ever since I found out I was prego...a small wedge of distance have come between us. We used to talk about how our many friends change after becoming parent's and all they ever talk about our babies. We just didn't understand those friends. We were aligned in our thinking and made a silent pact to never turn into one of those moms. Alas.....times have changed, and guess who is in that boat now??

And the whole mommy brain just sort of creeps up on you. I went from a girl who had so many interests and a thirst to learn all of these interesting things from around the world. And I still am the same girl, but now....everything I think about follows with.."What else will my baby need? Have I saved enough for maternity leave? Did I eat pretty well today? The baby sure is moving around a lot in my tummy." It just happens. One day you are a girl who only has to think about herself and the next thing you know, your whole brain is occupied with the little person inside of you. Now before I hung out with my friend yesterday, she sort of had a talk with me about it. I totally understood where she was coming from. Her best friend had changed virtually overnight. I still love hearing about her life and what's been going on, but now that I'm home more often and doing so many other things to prepare for baby, we just don't have as much in common anymore. And that's how we fell out of sync. Don't get me wrong, she loves hearing about the baby and how he's doing in my belly, but she does not want 90% of our conversation to be about him and I don't blame her. I'm happy to say, when we hung out yesterday...it was really good to catch up and baby was mentioned only a few times. At least I think so. I tend to mention him and not even realize it. Oops.

At the end of the day, I just had to reconcile with the fact that my life is never going to be the same again. I won't get to relate to my single friends who have no attachments the way that I used to be able to. That's just how life is. But I am gaining so much too. I can't wait to hold my precious little one in a couple of months. My friend and I acknowledged the change but also promised that we will always love each other and will do whatever we can to remain close. No matter what happens, we will always be there for one another. I can't wait for my baby to meet his auntie.