So sorry!

I just read my last two posts and I cannot believe how long it's been since I last wrote on here. The beginning of this year just took off like a storm. Work kept me busier than ever and on top of that I went back to school. Between juggling work, class, and mommyhood, I was just too exhausted to think about much else.

My class is finally done and I decided not to take any this summer. I guess it was sort of like an experiment and I am going to take some time to decide if I want to return in the fall. Baby K is still very demanding and I thought with class finally done, I could finally relax a bit but for some reason, he has decided this week to be like a monkey and as soon as we get home, he wants me to hold him all the time. I don't remember him being this demanding when I was in school, or maybe I was always in whirlwind and action mode that I didn't notice. And even though I love the fact that summer is approaching but these long daylight hours are killing me! Baby K refuses to sleep the normal time he does when it gets dark earlier so I get about half an hour to myself before I just zonk out. However, I keep trying to remind myself that someday he won't want to be around mommy so much. In fact whenever we go out and there are other kids, he barely even notices if I'm there or not. So I try to be mindful of that and not grunt when he wants me all of my attention. I'm sure one day I will look back on this time and won't even remember the fatigue, just the joy...

And because he's coming out of the baby stage so fast and already saying so many words, I just want to capture every single second with him and extend the cuteness for as long as possible. I can't believe I was just talking about him starting to walk in my previous entry because now all he wants to do is run everywhere. I need to take updated pics of him and upload onto here. Hopefully I'll get more chances like tonight to read articles online and become inspired to write a post. So anyways, sorry readers if it's been too long if I still even have any...
And sorry to my friends who I don't really get to catch up with very much these days. I plan to one day carve out more just "me" time again. Hope everyone is enjoying spring!

Happy Holidays!!

I can't believe Christmas is almost here. This is Baby K's second Christmas. :) He still doesn't know much about Santa or anything, and I tried to get him to watch a bit of Polar Express...it was not happening. He's happier just playing, although, he loves Christmas music.

Ever since he has learned how to walk, he only knows one motion. I have a hard time keeping up with him, but that just means, when I have a chance to unwind, I take it! I hope everyone is staying safe and enjoying time with love ones. Happy Holidays to all! Maybe next year, I will do a better job on keeping this updated..and posting new pics.

Here is one from Halloween! He didn't really dress up because his costume was way too big and I really didn't want to take him out since he had a cold. But he has a cat face. Haha BTW, yes, he loves to play soccer. Already! I guess no ballet for him. Made my guy friends all happy. I kid I kid

Quick Updates

Baby K is staring at me right now because I have been online for awhile trying to catch up on some reading. Before I logged off, I just wanted to share with our readers what we've been up to lately. His b-day came and went. We celebrated with family and everyone saw just how energetic he is now. He is not one to sit still very long. A busy body is definitely my little man. Halloween was pretty fun . I painted his face like a little cat and he was quite cutie but he kept rubbing his face so by the end of the night, the whiskers were almost gone. We didn't trick or treat because he had a slight cold and I didn't really want him out in the cold. But we had fun anyways, he played with his little uncle who got to go trick treating.

We are a lot more settled into our new home and we love it! Everything is so much closer and just knowing if I have to run out somewhere and it's close by makes even happier. Today, I had lunch with some of my girlfriends and what surprised me was what they said, "You never take a break." Meaning, I hardly ever tear myself away from baby K. But this weekend, I actually got to do a lot by myself. Yesterday, he went to the outlet mall with a relative for a few hours while I sat in a bookstore and read fashion magazines with yummy coffee and today of course, I got to eat without him at a restaurant. My "Me" time is really nice because I come back just ready to play play play with him. We went to the park and baked cookies this evening! He is really turning into a cookie monster. If I want his attention, I just have to say, "Baby, you want a cookie?" and he stops what he's doing! In case anyone is wondering, he has officially stopped staring at me and is now trying to climb into his little swing. Ok, he just walked back over. Oh yes, he walking a bit now. A little wobbly but sooo adorable!!

Ok, gotta go, hope to update this again soon!!

Almost 1 !!!

I can't believe how big my baby has gotten. He is moving all over the place like a little tornado. I can barely keep up with him. The only time he is still is when he's peacefully asleep. And it takes forever for him to fall asleep!

Life has kept us pretty busy. We've moved and just have a lot of things to organize. On top of that, I have to keep him entertained. He doesn't like to be bored! So besides being a mom and working full time, I've hardly had time to do much of anything else. I remember when he was first born saying to myself, I really just want to dedicate myself to being a mommy. Sure I get very antsy at times and want to update my blogs more often and pursue other hobbies but I stop and remember, he is only this small for so long. I also tell myself, timing is everything and right now, he needs me a whole lot. One day, he won't need me as much but not right now that isn't the case, so I must soak up our moment's together.

Next week he is turning 1! My little man is seriously getting incredibly big. Makes a mama so proud to see all of the things he learns every day. And now the holidays are coming up again. I love this time of year. Makes me think of family and togetherness. Also, it makes me want to cozy up with a good book and just chill....

I hope everyone is enjoying the swirling colors of fall. That nip in the air is totally refreshing and rejuvinating.

My little rock

No matter how many times I get stressed out or upset about things, every night I come home with my adorable son and everything just seems to fade away. I thought about writing this post the other night when it really hit home. He was just crawling around the floor while I was sitting there stewing over the awful day I had when he started making these funny faces. I couldn't help but to laugh out loud. And what do you know my problems just seemed to melt away....

I can't believe how lucky I am to have a happy baby. Don't get me wrong, he gets into quite a bit of trouble now. He's a mischievous little fella. He already gives me the look when he's about to do something he's not supposed to be doing just to see if mommy is watching. All in all he helps me to breathe and realize there are more important things in life than to worry about what others think of me. Truly he has been my rock and anchor. He is what grounds me onto this earth and to want to continue on knowing tomorrow is full of other possibilities.

There are times like this evening when being a single mom is hard. There just doesn't seem to be enough time in a day. I want to spend all of my evenings giving baby K my undivided attention and playing with him but at the time same time try to get things done before he goes to bed. I want to be selfish and keep him up as long as I can to savor more fun moments together since work comes again all too soon the next day, yet also I want to give him a strict routine so he feels the stability and security that baby's just seem to need. It's all such an emotional confusion. Which is the right way to do what? All I know is that I hate coming home and trying to do the things I need to do and only then spend about 30 minutes playing with baby K only to feel completely exhausted! However, it is mommy who is giving him his bath and feeding him his dinner so even though it may not be play time, he does have mommy all to himself. :)
Speaking to other mom's about this seem to help me also. They feel the same emotional guilt and they have partner's to help them so I guess it just comes with the role. Venting does help and they give the best advice to help ease some of the worries I have. No matter what, my little rock has brought so many gifts into my life that I just want to continue and appreciate the precious moment's we have everyday. He seems to be growing up way too fast! He is going to be 1 soon. Goodness!

I will soon post some new pics on here. He has teeth now! Like all proud mom's, I think he's simply adorable!!

Lucky Baby

Just about a year ago, I remember nights when I would go to bed crying afraid of the future and how I will be as a mother. I was excited, scared, and..just nervous. Now it's summer time and my baby will be 1 soon! He's actually playing with some of his toys right now and letting mommy write this post. And he has on this adorable outfit that one of his aunties bought him. I just took the price tag off. It's his first time wearing it. He has clothes that I'm still trying to have him wear before he grows out of them. I actually just found this outfit. I can't believe he is still wearing things that we received as gifts. How glad am I that my friends had the foresight to buy him things that he could wear now instead of just infant things during my baby shower.

But as I put the outfit on him today, I realized just how incredibly lucky baby K and I really are....
I was so scared of not being able to provide for him enough or...just scared about many things in general...but you know ...whatever we both needed...somehow things have just worked out for us. It's really amazing. Baby K's grandma (my mom) works at a restaurant and the whole staff there just adores him..so they actually puree and makes his meals for him at least 2 - 3 times a week. And so he gets almost home made fresh ingredient baby foods a lot of our evenings. Sure...I've bought quite a bit of things for him myself...but I can honestly say a lot of the things baby K has, someone has given to him. And of course, I want to continue the cycle. I'm not sure when I'll ever have another wee one again...although I'm already yearning for one (ha, crazy I know), but I really see no point in holding on to too many things. I don't mind giving a lot of his clothes away. I hope baby K grows up to understand the gift of giving. You just never know where life will take you, I'm just glad to be surrounded by so much love. :)

The Happy Chauffeur

Baby K is starting to want to stand on his own now! Amazing how fast everything has come to pass. During this past weekend, we went everywhere together, errands, friends home, grandma's work, and bbq's. But the thing is...no one really wanted to see me, everyone waited expectedly to see the Little Man!! I was just his happy chauffeur driving us around town. He doesn't realize how lucky he has it right now. Haha
I wish I had someone driving me around to all the places I need to be at. It has been such a busy couple of months for us. We are in the process of moving homes. Actually we won't really move until September. It has a good school district and is much closer to work for me. The time on commuting will be cut by a lot which makes me soo happy because that means I will have more free time in the evenings. And who wouldn't love that? My nights and weekends are so much fuller with baby K around. It definitely makes life more interesting. The idea of wanting to provide a safe and loving home for my baby is first and foremost on my priority list. So for the next few months, I will also be looking through plenty of decor magazines and TRYING to cut back on buying things I don't need! I thought I cut back when he was first born, but now I really have to. But it's all exciting and sooo worth it. We are planning a trip to the zoo this weekend, I will try and post pics. He is definitely in his element whenever we are outdoors. Camping is a must sometime in the future.

Hope everyone is enjoying the summer weather! :)