Day two

I have started this blog and I definitely want to continue. After posting my first blog last night, I felt this huge weight just lift. Even though I have spoken to those around me about my innermost feelings on being prego, something about getting it all out there writing on the Internet and possibly having others read what I had to say, felt very cleansing for me.

There are so many side effects that comes with being pregnant that nothing in the world can prepare you for it and each women experiences different things. I can only describe what I have gone through. You alternate between feelings of anxiety because you don't feel fully prepared, (mentally or financially) to moments of pure joy picturing your baby in your arms. The highs and lows dip back and forth, an emotional roller coaster you feel daily.

I remember one day when my car's battery just stopped working. I was about 3 months along and I ended calling one of my best friends crying because my fears got the best of me once again. In my head, I was like, "What would I do in this situation if my car runs out of me, and my baby is in the back seat in his carrier!?" All sorts of scenarios went through my mind...what if it's in the middle of winter...what if it's night time on a deserted road? When my best friend calmed me down and the logical side of me came out once again. I remembered that I have a cell phone and plenty of family and friends who would come to my aid in a second. It was good in the world again until some other thing would happen that would bring my world tumbling. Those are the types of things that I experienced in the first four months of my pregnancy. Now I'm just cruising along, not to say I still don't tear up every now and then, but I'm much too excited for my baby's impending birth to think of much else. By the way, I'm happy to say I am having a baby boy! If I didn't mention that earlier. Oh and that's the other thing, your mind sort of goes when your pregnant. You'll be talking about something and mid sentence have no clue where it was leading to. Friends and co-workers found this hilarious with me because I've always been so sharp. I just blame it on the baby. :) You get away with a lot more when they see you are growing another person in your belly.