Presense

I can't believe how fast time keeps speeding by. March is right around the corner. Ever since baby K was born, my life has just taken off into the fast lane. The only time we have to unwind is during the weekend. It's nice that it's been cold because we have an excuse to stay in, but warmer weather is coming and baby K is getting bigger and more antsy. I have a feeling we will be spending lot's of time at the playground and pool.

Work has also been keeping me extremely busy. But once the work hours are done and I'm staring into baby K's eyes, everything else just falls away. It's really tough sometimes to not bring work home. And there are days when I'm a bit frazzled and stressed, then I tend to be grumpy but when I feel that edge around baby K, I stop and check myself. He is a reminder to truly be in the moment. Because if I can't be fully present around him, I find myself losing patience. And patience is definitely something that baby K has taught me. When he's fussy and crying non stop, it's up to mommy to figure out what's wrong. Most of time, it's just from being tired.

Lastly in his presense, I try to always be cheerful. No matter how hectic my day may have been, when I go pick him up he always has the biggest smile when he sees me and it immediately sets things right again. He gets so excited to be around me, it's the most amazing feeling. To love this other little person so incredibly much and to see it reciprocated, I just can't even begin to capture it into words. Overall, it really just makes me feel blessed.

A moment to myself

Baby K is taking a nap right now. I wish I could update this more frequently but I'm still trying to find balance for everything. I keep trying to do everything the same as pre-baby, do my writings, keep in touch with most of my friends (old and new), do most of my cleaning during the weekends, but it's not happening! I realize today that something has to give. As baby K gets bigger, he stays away longer and need fewer naps. Sometimes, he pretty good at entertaining himself so that I can do other things, but then he just looks so adorable, that I end up playing with him most of the time or just cuddling.

And on weeknights when we get home, it's like he misses me so much during the day that all he wants is for mommy to hold and hug him. It's really very sweet. I never get enough of his hugs!! But I have to admit, I haven't gotten very much done in the past few weeks. When I think of the mounting list of things I need to get done, it's pretty overwhelming. I just need to take everyone's advice and remember baby steps and it's all one day at a time.

Someday I'll get around to it! Haha. I hope everyone has a Happy Valentine's day this weekend. Single or alone, it's a day to remember to love!!

And he keeps on growing

I can't believe baby K is almost 4 months old. The tiny little baby I brought home from the hospital has grown into a little chunky monkey. He is so engaging now. He loves to laugh, baby babble, and kick his legs up. Everyone who sees him calls him the butterball. I put some of his newborn clothing away the other day and it made me so sad. They are sooo small! I can't believe how tiny he was when I brought him home. Now he has rolls everywhere. :)

And he's just so fun to be around. He truly keeps me busy. Auntie H saw occupied he kept me on Saturday. He loves having someone play with him. The only time I can get some things done is when he's taking his short naps. When he's awake, it's play time again! Nothing makes him happier then when mommy is changing his diaper or sleeper. He loves being naked. As soon as anything comes off, he's kicking his legs and punching the air laughing. He's ready for karate lessons!

Summer needs to hurry and get here. I can't keep containing him inside the house with this weather. Luckily he's still small. I haven't really wanted to take him out too much because he had a tiny cold and an ear infection last week. Now, I've come down with a cold too. I hope to feel better soon to keep up with Baby K!