Lists, Lists, and More Lists

I am reaching the stage where I'm just anxious about everything. I still have about 2 1/2 months to go before baby arrival, but I feel like there are still a million things to do before he gets here. I am constantly making lists and reminders of what needs to be done. On top of that, in your last trimester you are so tired! Which is even stranger because when the lights are out, it's hard to fall asleep. All you can think about are the things that you still need to do.

I just read a list of what I need to pack for the hospital stay....so that prompted me to schedule in some time of packing that. The list seems endless on top of other regular chores, like getting my car oil change this weekend. Even in my downtime, I'm thinking..man, I still have to do this and that. There just isn't enough time in one day. And even worse if I wanted to really relax, why is there nothing to watch on tv?? All of these reality shows really stink. I hope once the Fall Season starts the shows will get better. See...my mind just sort of drifts from one topic to the other. It could be that way even more so now because I had a long day at work and I'm feeling pretty exhausted.

With so many things running through my mind, time just seems to be zooming by. On one hand, I can't wait to hold my baby in my arms, on the other hand, I'm going to miss the feeling of carrying him inside of me. Sometimes, I just sit in amazement staring at my belly knowing there is a little person inside there. It's truly such a magical time. I don't even miss going out for late nights with the girls or dancing until the sun comes up. Everything just sort of shifted for me when I knew I was expecting. Although I have to say I was getting tired of that whole scene for awhile now. But I was incredibly carefree pre-prego times. Now, there will be another person I will need to look out for. It's not all about me anymore, and that is what creates the dramatic shifts. I never fully got it, even hearing about it from my other mommy friends. You don't know the true depth of how much you can worry until another life matters more than your own. Life takes on a new meaning. You really start to appreciate things a lot more and the kindness and support you receive from everyone will truly touch your heart.