Being a working mom, I'm not sure if I will ever get over the guilty feelings that wash over me every single day. As soon as baby K and I rush home in the evenings, most of the time our daily routines includes dinner, play time, and bath time. Since I hurry to get all these things done before our bedtime, I normally just go through the motions and think ahead to what needs to get done next.
The other day I was so completely distracted that baby K had a little accident. He is quite active right now and I turned away for just a second. I felt horrible! Like the worst mother in the world. It completely shook me and he was perfectly fine but I cannot stop tearing up every time I think about it. All through my work day, I was so emotional it felt like I was prego all over again! When someone asked me why I was so sensitive today I told him what happened. And he really put things into perspective for me. Other parent's have offered comfort too. And I feel slightly ok now....
It wasn't so much that baby K had a little boo boo, it was that I was distracted. It has made me much more aware of the fact that when I'm spending time with baby K my attention needs to be completely focused on him. He is growing so fast, I don't want to miss any second with him. When I'm feeding him, it's feeding time, just me, him, and food. When it's bath time, I sing songs to him, everything else is turned off. All he hears is my voice comforting him in the warm bath. I'm sure he won't remember any of these things, but I hope the feeling of security stays with him. I won't always be able to spend every second of my free time with him because of chores or whatever reason, but the times that I do, I want to make sure my complete presense is with him. I realize how precious every day is when I look at my baby. He was so tiny not too long ago and now he is getting so big! Everyone knows him as my little man because that's what I call him. His features are so different now. It seems like he got to this stage in just a blink of an eye. He is already trying to crawl!
Here is another picture of him from our past weekend! We had an awesome time out on the boat with family and friends. My little man enjoyed the attention way too much. :) For anyone who has been following this blog, can you believe how big he is?! Take everyday as a gift, because it truly is.....
Have a happy week!
