Happy New Year!!

Just some updated pics!!

Year's Closing

I hope everyone had a good holiday. Baby K's first Christmas was pretty nice. He got a few presents but what really made him laugh was his uncle Dennis playing and making goofy faces at him. Not quite ready for some of the toys he got. He's quite content when anyone just holds him. And now we are getting ready for the New Year.

What an eventful year it has been for me. Last New Year's eve, I was at a friends house playing the Wii and having a few drinks. This year, I will be with my baby at home. A girlfriend has invited me out and a part of me definitely wants to go but the larger part of me just wants to stay up til midnight with baby K. This has been the constant conflict for the last few weeks. In the past, I could go out with my single friends without a second thought and now I just can't stand to be away from my baby for more than a couple of hours. I keep telling everyone I wish I could just take him out with me, but that's not possible either. I guess I'm still trying to adjust to my new role. Baby K will always come first but there are times where I still feel I haven't completely let go of the old Diane. I could come and go to where ever I please without a care in the world to anyone else but me. But having this little person who seems to always be comforted in my arms and so happy to see me peering over his bed to pick him up has been the sweetest comfort imaginable. Please note, he still rarely leaves my arm when we are home. I started this entry with two hands and now typing with one. I just can't stand to hear him cry when all I know he wants is to cuddle with mommy. Looking at his sweet sad face is impossible to deny him that. *sigh :)

Have a Happy New Year everyone, you never know what kind of surprises could be in store......!

Happy Holidays

I am soo excited about having some more days off. The rest is always a welcome! Most importantly this is one of the warmest time of year because I get together with the rest of the family, open a few presents, eat lot's of food and go down memory lane. And now there's a new addition in our family which makes it an extra special Christmas. I even put a tree up. Normally my grandma puts a tree up so I really don't bother because all the of presents end up there. But this year I did. I want to start my own traditions with my son and even though he's too small to understand why I'm putting the tree up and decorating it with ornaments, I want him to know tradition started right away with mommy when he looks back at pictures.

He keeps changing right before my very eyes. I can't believe just a little over two months ago, he was still in my belly. And now he's here and active as ever. If he could, I bet he would start crawling and walking today. Sometimes, I just lay him on his boppy and he constantly punches and kicks the air giggling to himself. I videotape him as much as I can (not often enough) just because I think every little thing he does is so adorable. Well, I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas! Stay Warm :) I will add more pics soon!

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It's hard to find the energy to write the way that I used to because every single minute I have now is used to do something or finding a moment to lie down for a second. Being a mother is incredibly rewarding especially when I get one of my angel's little smile, but it is also incredibly exhausting. Especially now that baby K always just want to be in his mama's arms. Try making coffee and grabbing a bite to eat when there is a crying baby around because you are trying to get him to self soothe. Not easy! It's amazing though because no matter how crazy he is making me, every time I take a look at his adorable chubby cheeks, I instantly melt. He has me wrapped around his tiny finger! Motherhood definitely requires patience. I have never been more patient in my entire life. Which leads me onto the title of this blog.

Being around baby K has made me have more patience which is a good thing because if I didn't have any I would be fighting with my family and others every single day. I cannot count the many times I get this question, "So the father hasn't called?" "No people, but I promise you the second that he does, I will let you know so you can quit asking me this question!" I don't know how many times I have to repeat myself regarding baby K's father. We are both adults, I chose to keep baby K therefore, he is mine and mine to worry about. Baby K's father, (actually I like to just call him the man who contributed to half of baby K's genes) is a full grown man who has my contact information. If he truly wanted to be involved in baby K's life, then he would. It's his choice to stay away. In the meantime, I don't have time to think about it and rarely do until someone has to ask me this same question again and again. If I really wanted him around, believe me I'm not shy, I would contact him. So I wish some people would just let it go. Okay enough ranting about that. :)

It's been so incredibly busy at work right now, it's nice being a full time worker again even though I do miss my baby very much. It feels good to be needed and useful. I'm also starting to learn new things which has gotten me to really consider going back to school and getting another degree. My boss is totally encouraging it and has even given some advice. So that is another thing I'm looking into right now. My co-worker is like, "Are you crazy, aren't you busy enough?" I was going to wait until baby K is a bit older but my boss said now would be better and I think he's right. The sooner I do this, the sooner I can be done. My family will also help which I am so grateful for. Hopefully I can start taking classes by summer time or fall next year!

Mama's Boy

It's been awhile since I had a real moment to myself and have enough energy to gather my thoughts and write this entry. Most of the time after work, I'm completely exhausted but still have many things to do. Luckily with this past weekend being so cold, I got to just be at home and mainly relax. Couldn't catch up on too much sleep since Baby K wakes up every few hours. I'm still waiting for the day when I get 6 hours of sleep in a row. His sitter told me not for a long time because when he turns 16, I'll be waiting up for him to come home at night. Oh well, a girl can dream. But I will say waking up to his adorable face makes the interrupted sleep completely worth it. When I'm sooo tired and dragging myself out of a lovely dream, I just peek over and see his cute face looking up at me expectedly waiting for me to gather him up into my arms, I know it's so worth it.

Well..now he is definitely entering another stage. The "I don't want to leave mama's arm stage." For a good while, he was a pretty content baby playing by himself and only needed me when he was hungry or needed a diaper change. Those days have slowly disappeared. If I have him sit by himself even for a minute while I do the dishes or whatever, I hear him crying. It used to be where he could sit in his little rocker and be fine as long as he can still see mama. Now nothing soothes him better than being in my arms. He falls asleep when I hold him but the minute I put him in his little bed, he wakes right back up and the process starts all over again, playing, rocking, singing..and so on. That's also why it's been hard to blog. Typing with one hand was not easy, so I gave up. Amazingly this evening, he must be worn out because he is taking a nap right now and was fine when I put him in bed. So...although I may be tired most of the time, I know it all goes by way too fast. Someday he will be walking and won't need me as much and I'll long for the time when I can just hold my baby in my arms again. Although, what other mom's have told me is proving to be true. Every stage that he is entering gets more and more exciting to be around. At first I missed the days when he just came from the hospital because he was super tiny and doll like. He is growing so fast! But also now his personality is really coming out and it's so fun to witness all of it.

I hope everyone is excited for the holidays. The thing I'm looking forward to most is being around my family. It truly isn't about gift giving, it's about spending time with the people you love. Thanksgiving reminded me of that and now I can't wait until Christmas. I hope everyone has a Happy Holiday and remember the blessings they were given throughout this year. Even if times may seem dark, light is always on the horizon with a new day.