Lucky Baby

Just about a year ago, I remember nights when I would go to bed crying afraid of the future and how I will be as a mother. I was excited, scared, and..just nervous. Now it's summer time and my baby will be 1 soon! He's actually playing with some of his toys right now and letting mommy write this post. And he has on this adorable outfit that one of his aunties bought him. I just took the price tag off. It's his first time wearing it. He has clothes that I'm still trying to have him wear before he grows out of them. I actually just found this outfit. I can't believe he is still wearing things that we received as gifts. How glad am I that my friends had the foresight to buy him things that he could wear now instead of just infant things during my baby shower.

But as I put the outfit on him today, I realized just how incredibly lucky baby K and I really are....
I was so scared of not being able to provide for him enough or...just scared about many things in general...but you know ...whatever we both needed...somehow things have just worked out for us. It's really amazing. Baby K's grandma (my mom) works at a restaurant and the whole staff there just adores him..so they actually puree and makes his meals for him at least 2 - 3 times a week. And so he gets almost home made fresh ingredient baby foods a lot of our evenings. Sure...I've bought quite a bit of things for him myself...but I can honestly say a lot of the things baby K has, someone has given to him. And of course, I want to continue the cycle. I'm not sure when I'll ever have another wee one again...although I'm already yearning for one (ha, crazy I know), but I really see no point in holding on to too many things. I don't mind giving a lot of his clothes away. I hope baby K grows up to understand the gift of giving. You just never know where life will take you, I'm just glad to be surrounded by so much love. :)