My Weekend

I didn't do too much this weekend. Did some errands and cooked a lot at home. Also, bought some more baby clothes. My new worry is making sure he has plenty of clothes during the winter months. I'm not very good at driving especially in the snow, so I want to be as prepared as possible. Of course, I would have to go to the stores anyways during that time, but I still want to make sure I have at least his clothes ready.

At the bookstore yesterday, I remember thinking from now on after his birth, he will go everywhere with me. I will have to make special arrangements if I have to go somewhere I prefer not to take him to. That kind of hit home for me. I mean, I knew this all along, but for some reason, the whole thing dawned on me just yesterday. My life will not only be making room for another person, but he will be by side.... all the time. I know I have relatives who can babysit, but for the most part, I won't want to leave him unless I absolutely have to. I wonder how long before I get used to that and adjust to it. I think everyone is scared of change in some way. This is a huge change for me. I have been so used to doing whatever I want and going anywhere I want without having to answer to anybody.

Even though I am scared, I also realize life is about transitions. Nothing ever stays the same. We all get a little aprehensive about the unknown. I will document everything that I feel after his birth. No matter what, I am very excited for his arrival. That is one thing I do know for sure. I wonder what others around the world is scared of at this moment. Scared of losing a job? A loved one? A breakup? I guess having a little fear makes us more aware of how precious things are. You just never know what kind of turn your life will take. All we can do is enjoy the here and now. A year ago last year, I never would have imagined I would be preparing for motherhood right now. I was just a single girl enjoying the dating life. It really goes to show so much can happen within the span of year.