In My Baby's Eyes

Baby K's crying will wake me out of the deepest sleep in the middle of the night but the second his eyes sees my face he immediately breaks into a smile. He loves to have anyone smiling and talking to him. He giggles at whatever anyone says as long as that person is talking to him. And on so many occasions, when I'm holding him and he's staring up into the air just smiling away. It confirms for me that there are angels around. At first, I did think it was gas and that's why he would stare off into space and make a face, but now it happens all the time. He even does his baby gurgling and fist waving when he's looking up.

There is so much innocence in my baby's eyes that it's hard to believe the world can be a dangerous place. He looks at me with such open trust and adoration with his big brown eyes. And when his eyes fill with tears because mommy stepped away for a second, it literally breaks my heart to see it. He really is an extension of me. Whatever he feels, I feel it double the amount.

Lastly, I also believe there is wisdom behind his sweet stare. When I'm feeling overwhelmed and can't help but to break down and cry while holding him, he calmly looks at me as if to say, "it's all going to work out mommy." He makes me a better me.