Year's Closing

I hope everyone had a good holiday. Baby K's first Christmas was pretty nice. He got a few presents but what really made him laugh was his uncle Dennis playing and making goofy faces at him. Not quite ready for some of the toys he got. He's quite content when anyone just holds him. And now we are getting ready for the New Year.

What an eventful year it has been for me. Last New Year's eve, I was at a friends house playing the Wii and having a few drinks. This year, I will be with my baby at home. A girlfriend has invited me out and a part of me definitely wants to go but the larger part of me just wants to stay up til midnight with baby K. This has been the constant conflict for the last few weeks. In the past, I could go out with my single friends without a second thought and now I just can't stand to be away from my baby for more than a couple of hours. I keep telling everyone I wish I could just take him out with me, but that's not possible either. I guess I'm still trying to adjust to my new role. Baby K will always come first but there are times where I still feel I haven't completely let go of the old Diane. I could come and go to where ever I please without a care in the world to anyone else but me. But having this little person who seems to always be comforted in my arms and so happy to see me peering over his bed to pick him up has been the sweetest comfort imaginable. Please note, he still rarely leaves my arm when we are home. I started this entry with two hands and now typing with one. I just can't stand to hear him cry when all I know he wants is to cuddle with mommy. Looking at his sweet sad face is impossible to deny him that. *sigh :)

Have a Happy New Year everyone, you never know what kind of surprises could be in store......!